Opposite Day – Daily Prompt Post
I am a VERY positive person. I believe in the power of positive energy. I also believe in and practice the Law of Attraction. I believe what you think about you bring out. But, even I have down days. Even I struggle to find sunshine on the cloudy days. Even I get down some times and give into the opposite negative force of emotions and frustrations. Today is that day. As today’s Daily Prompt is to write something opposite to what you normally write, I am writing out my feelings even though they not happy and positive. Sorry this isn’t my normal upbeat and positive post. It’s just the opposite. But, as my Mother just said to me, this is how it is today and it’s ok to not be happy every day.
Some days you just have to surrender to what you feel. Some days no matter how hard you try to be positive you just can’t be. I am very depressed today and trying my best to pull myself out of it.
Over two weeks ago I went to an Urgent Care because I had an all too familiar sinus headache and knew it was an infection. But, the Doctor said I wasn’t infected and only prescribed and nasal spray. Five days later I felt worse and went to my GP who said I was definitely was VERY infected and that my Lymph Nodes in my neck were swollen. She prescribed an antibiotic and told me to follow up with an Ears, Nose & Throat doctor. I continued to go to work and finish Physical Therapy but cut out all other extra curricular activities. After 8 days on the antibotic and resting a good bit, I felt no significant improvement. After spending the better part of a sunny weekend on the sofa resting, I was surprised that I actually could feel that ALL of my lymph nodes were SORE and swollen.
Last Wednesday, the ENT switched me to a new antibiotic and I called out of work sick for the rest of the week. I saw the ENT on Friday. I really like him. I’ve been his patient for years and he’s one of the few doctors I truly trust. He told me he thinks this is going to take a little while to go away because my blood tests showed my Immune System is borderline functional. Also, I had an allergic reaction to Celebrex late in May and was on high doses of steroids for five days which does a number on the Immune System. Therefore, my Immune System is weak right now which means it will take my body longer to recover and I needed to do whatever it takes to support it during this recovery period. He told me I am exhausted and my Lymph Nodes are swollen because my body is working very hard to fight something off. What I am feeling is my body trying to bounce back and heal itself. It’s wearing me out. He made a feel a little better by telling me sore lymph nodes are more indicative of viral or bacteria processes and not anything more serious. But, if my lymph nodes do not feel better by this coming Wednesday I have to have blood work and an MRI. He made me laugh when he told me people cough in his face all day long and he follows the following program to support his Immune System and recommended I do the same:
- A good quality multi-vitamin with Iron & 2000iu of Vitamin D3
- Elderberry Extract
- Apple Cider Vinegar
- Orangic Vegetables
- Fresh Squeezed Lemon in 8 to 16oz of water
- Moderate exercise – I already do this ALOT!
- Rest, Sleep and just give in and let my body heal
Now I am just trying to go with flow and ride this out. I am exhausted and I feel like I felt 25 years ago wehn I had Mono. The swollen lymph nodes hurt and make me a little short of breath because they are pressing on nerves and muscles. Basically, I am miserable and just needed to get this off my chest because I’ve been holding it mostly in. I am thankful that so far I haven’t been diagnosed with any serious disease. But, it’s perfectly ok for me to frustrated and depressed that my body is just so worn down when I’ve done my best to prevent this. Chronic stress plus a banged up Immune System is what caused this. I am mindful that I need to educate myself to learn to manage both better.
My Doctor told me I shouldn’t go back to work until I felt good because I am susceptible and could have a setback. Setback? Have I moved forward? Because if I did, I didn’t notice it. lol:-) Anyway, I am going to work from home for a few days instead of going into the office to give myself some time to mend itself. And, I go back to the ENT on Wednesday. Hopefully, I’ll feel better by then or I will be taking a week of vacation to rest. Not fun.
I am also pissy today because I had tickets to go to the Phillies game today with my family. Obviously, I couldn’t go. It’s something we do annually and I am really sad I am missing it. I am watching the game on TV but it’s making me a little bitter.
With that in mind, I can’t end this post without giving thanks for a few things in hopes that it helps switch the energy surrounding my body:
I am thankful for:
Supportive family and friends
I haven’t been diagnosed with any serious illnesses
I have a job that I can work from home and they are very accommodating – BIG PLUS!
I have the opportunity to improve my Immune System before it totally crashed. I lost 75lbs, heal Liver disease, stabilized a congenital arrhythmia without medication, healed my stomach from Celiac Disease and healed my neck from cervical disk Disease. But, now it’s time to focus on healing my Immune System.
NOTE about the Photo:
I selected this painting for this post because this how I look when I am resting at home all day. hee hee :-) Well, my breasts usually aren’t exposed and I try to wear pants most days (Opposite again) but still sexy:-)